February 27, 2011

A Father Indeed

I love this message. So touching

February 26, 2011

Happy 30 to the sweetest man I know

Today is Clay Brown's Big 30th birthday! I just thought I would honor him with this little post, maybe embarrass him a little. Clay is literally the sweetest, most genuine person I have ever met. When i met Clay, I knew there was something so different about him. He was unlike any other guy I had ever met and maybe that's because I didn't get out enough or maybe it's because he puts up with me. Either way, I truly have never met a guy as sweet as Clay. I'm not sure how I was so blessed to find Clay, sometimes I really don't think I deserve such an amazing man... I lucked out! Clay and I have faced a few trials this past year, these trials have definitely brought us closer and have helped us grow. When I married Clay, I truly didn't think I could love a person more than I did on that day. Wow! This past year has proven me wrong! I can truly say that I have reached a whole new level of humility and love and we have been blessed to have felt that together. I cannot imagine my life without him. I cannot imagine going through what we have gone through with any other person. He is perfect and anyone you ask will tell you that he is truly the perfect friend, son, brother, dad and husband. Happy birthday to the sweetest man I know.

Since Clay is working on his birthday, Last friday I decided to throw him a surprise get together with a few of his good friends while staying with our Lizzie at primary children's. Beside the fact that Clay and I showed up about 30 minutes late because I couldn't get him to leave the hospital, we had a really good time and he was surprised! Thanks Everyone!

February 23, 2011

Lizzie's Heart Surgery

Day 1:
February 14, 2011
Taking her in on valentines. They drew her blood and (TRIED) to get a sample of her pee. 
Q: How do you get a 5 month old to pee in a cup?
A: You don't. You tape a little plastic bag to her little privates. When that doesn't work, you find a plastic ziploc bag big enough for her to fit in and put her in it, feet first... and then wait and hope it works. I would have posted pictures of that experience but thought it would be slightly inappropriate.

Day 2:
February 15, 2011
We checked in at primary childrens at 6:oo am. Gave them our sample of what pee we could catch in the plastic bag. First we talk to the nurse practitioner, then the heart surgeon, Dr. Burch. He explains the procedure and of course gives us all of the risks. He explained that where the hole is located in Lizzie's heart, there is a chance that the conductor could get damaged and she would have to depend on a pace maker for the rest of her life. Of course at that point I had a melt down. After talking to Dr. Burch, in came the anesthesiologist. Did some more talking, I don't remember a word he said. Thank goodness Clay was listening. We dressed Lizzie in her robe, carried her to the operating room and then handed her to the anesthesiologist. I didn't get any pictures at this point because I was crying, really emotional and didn't think to take out the camera. After sitting in the waiting room for a long 5 hours, the surgeon came in and explained that the surgery went well except for one thing. After he finished the surgery, her heart was beating all on its own for about 20 minutes and then stopped, something he had never seen before and explained that her heart was in fact depending on a pacemaker. Once again, I broke down. They called us up to the pediatric intensive care unit where she spent the next two days...


Day 3:
February 16, 2011
They took the oxygen machine out and she was still obviously in pain and just out of it. At this point, her heart was still on and off the pace maker and she was still really swollen. I was in shock when I saw her right after the surgery, it looked like someone had filled her up like a balloon! It was so sad.

Day 4:
February 17, 2011
We showed up at the PICU early in the morning and found our baby girl with the coolest hair do I have ever seen! I'm sad to say, I cannot take credit for this one. The nurse that was with her that night, bless her heart, had good intentions. Lizzie's hair can get really out of control at times. To be really honest, we laughed really hard and shortly after snapping a few pics, we washed her hair and gave her a little shampoo set..
 Things started looking up, a little more awake but still with chest tubes. Only used the pace maker once and got the big i.v taken out of her neck!

Day 5:
February 18, 2011
Lizzie got her chest tubes taken out and was acting a little more like herself. I wish I could thank personally whoever invented these weird little singing animals. This is Lizzie's favorite toy. When the i.v team put more needles in her arm, she didn't even notice! Didn't even flinch! Just as long as her little pink  thingy was singing to her, she was just in love. 

She even attempted to smile!

Day 6:
February 19, 2011
Lizzie was sent to the childrens surgical unit. This meant she was closer to going home! She was moved to her own room and Clay and I got to sleep in her room with her (I slept on the couch, Clay slept on the floor). We were so excited at how well she was doing and couldn't believe how quickly she was recovering!

Day 7:
February 20, 2011
Lizzie was laughing and smiling a lot more, her heart was beating completely without the pace maker and she was doing well.. so despite how tired we were we couldn't help but feel excited and hopeful.

Day 8:
February 21, 2011
 We were told that we would be going home. The cardiologist told us we have to stay one more night because they want to monitor her just a little longer. We were really board, tired and ready to go home! Lizzie started to get really restless hanging out in her bed, hooked up to all kinds of wires and heart monitors. We took her on a ride around the 3rd floor in the wagon. She loved it, and we loved that she finally got to sleep!

Day 9:
February 22, 2011
Finally going home! We were so excited when they told us we could officially get released! Lizzie was completely off the oxygen, and had not been dependent on the pace maker for a few days. We were honestly so excited to be going home so soon! We had planned to be there for at least 2 weeks because of how her heart reacted right after the surgery. Lizzie truly is one strong baby girl! She surprised us all and recovered so much quicker than we had even expected! We are grateful for our family and friends and are extremely grateful for everyones prayers.
 We are so excited for our Lizzie and can't wait to watch her exceed our expectations again and again in the future!

February 11, 2011

New Heart for Valentines

Lizzie gets a new heart for Valentines this year. Well, maybe not a new heart but a repaired heart. The surgery is scheduled for the 15th but we have to take her in on Valentines day. This is a Valentines we will never forget that is for sure! The doctors tell us the recovery will be a week maybe two. We are extremely grateful for Primary Childrens and for all of their amazing nurses and doctors. When Clay blessed Lizzie, he mentioned how blessed she is to have been born at a time with all of the amazing advances in technology. We feel blessed. We are scared, but so grateful at the same time to see the great progress Lizzie will make with a repaired heart. She is one strong little girl. I remember when she was born, everyone was crying and there was Lizzie just looking around like she knew everything was going to be ok. Even when they wheeled her out to the ambulance to take her from Payson to Primary Childrens, I found strength just looking at her. She was calm, and just content.

I was watching one of my favorite cheesy chick flicks the other day, Return To Me... It's about a girl that gets a heart transplant.  Her cute grandpa says something to Grace (his granddaughter who receives a heart transplant) that was so simple and true. He said "It's those that are the strongest that God gives the most challenges to, you can take that as a compliment!" I do believe Lizzie is strong and I do believe that she can take it as a compliment to have been sent to this earth with the challenges that she has. We are so blessed to have been given such a strong baby girl. Thanks everyone for all of your love and support, Don't forget our Lizzie Jane in your prayers this Valentines.